Starry Nights, City Lights

Sometimes, when I get to thinking, I laugh at how ridiculously stupid I am. Perhaps stupid isn't the right word... more like blind? I don't know. When I look at people, I try to see the good in them, even when they flaunt their bad traits. I forgive too easily, forget too easily, love too easily, trust too easily. And no matter how many times I get screwed over, I never learn my lesson. Why? Why can't I get it through my head that everyone is just completely fake and only cares about themselves? The only time this ever actually occurs to me is just for a fleeting moment when I really, really, REALLY think about it. I'm not even talking about recently, nothing happened in the past few days to make me feel like this. I just do. Well, except when Emily was all, y'know, and pissed me off. But that's a story for another day, and I just really don't like her as a person or friend. Back on track, I feel like I let people walk all over me. Hey Hannah, I'm gonna talk about you behind your back. But don't be mad at me, I'm really sorry! And what do I do? "Oh, it's alright." I know I do it, but I can't break the habit of pleasing people. Haha, that sounded weird, hmm? Seriously though. I just forgive. I guess it's because it's easier than being confrontational, but sometimes I think that I'm stupid for doing it. I just really need to learn how to tell people to piss off. So many problems, such a short period of time.