Starry Nights, City Lights

Sometimes, when I get to thinking, I laugh at how ridiculously stupid I am. Perhaps stupid isn't the right word... more like blind? I don't know. When I look at people, I try to see the good in them, even when they flaunt their bad traits. I forgive too easily, forget too easily, love too easily, trust too easily. And no matter how many times I get screwed over, I never learn my lesson. Why? Why can't I get it through my head that everyone is just completely fake and only cares about themselves? The only time this ever actually occurs to me is just for a fleeting moment when I really, really, REALLY think about it. I'm not even talking about recently, nothing happened in the past few days to make me feel like this. I just do. Well, except when Emily was all, y'know, and pissed me off. But that's a story for another day, and I just really don't like her as a person or friend. Back on track, I feel like I let people walk all over me. Hey Hannah, I'm gonna talk about you behind your back. But don't be mad at me, I'm really sorry! And what do I do? "Oh, it's alright." I know I do it, but I can't break the habit of pleasing people. Haha, that sounded weird, hmm? Seriously though. I just forgive. I guess it's because it's easier than being confrontational, but sometimes I think that I'm stupid for doing it. I just really need to learn how to tell people to piss off. So many problems, such a short period of time.

I Was Spinning Free

Hey guys, sorry it's been so long.
The last few days have been pretty uneventful. On Saturday we all trekked up to Maryland to send Ryan off. He's moving to San Francisco, or, as the awesome cake decorators called it, Sanfransico. Haha. Anyway that was pretty fun, i spent like an hour in Aunt Sue's awesome massage chair. I hung out with Caila like the entire time. Three year olds are hard to keep entertained! But we managed. On the car ride home she was SOOOO loud the entire time. Like... so loud. Sunday Erin and I got taco bell and went to church, always a good thing. The church, I mean. After that I went to go and see Step Brothers, which was HILARIOUS! Go see it (:
So yeah, that was my uneventful weekend. Hopefully I do something more interesting tomorrow.

And They Found You On the Bathroom Floor

I'm feeling a bit nostalgic today.
Well, yesterday too, since it's mad early. Whatever. And to me, nostalgia is never a good thing, because i generally hate my memories. Isn't it funny that everything I remember makes me cry or pisses me off? There are so few things I can look back at and smile. What's really been bugging me is Emily. She changed so f*cking much, and I really miss the person she used to be. But no matter what I do she's just this completely different person and I'm like, should I even bother? Blahhhhh. Last summer was so shitty, when she ignored me all the time and talked shit and then lied about it for a free trip to the beach. That was possibly the worst mistake of my life, not realizing that she was just so different. It just really hurt my feelings, a lot of the things she said. I've also been thinking about ex boyfriends. We won't name names, but I think that breakup was a complete f*ck-up. I believe you get your one chance to find a soul mate and the more I think about it the more I'm like AHHH. I wish that the past was just like, gone, you know? Life would be so much easier without having to look back at everything that's put you where you are today. Good or bad, it just doesn't matter. However, humans enjoy using their brains and the rewind button. Something upstairs is making a buzzing noise, it's extremely loud and distracting. Who the hell is using the massager at 1:30?! Hmm. Last night (technically,) we took Caila to this little carnival at my high school, it was alot of fun actually. Maggie and I rode an octopus thing and she almost puked, and we rode in one of those crazy teacup things except it was a strawberry! haha. We went really fast on that janks too. And Caila rode the giant slide about twelve times, and I got hit on by the superfine ticket taker (: That made my day a little bit better. This weekend I'm going to Maryland with the family to say goodbye to Ryan, he's moving to California. All of my cousins are moving so far away! (Come back annaaaaa!) AWWW Aibell is asleep. She's so cute. I don't want to give her away, thank goodness for Casie's padre.
Alright, my Tylenol P.M. is kicking in. Ironic that I took it in the morning? Perhaps. (:
g'nightttt

edit: i now have to censor these because my dad sucks. k.

The Great Escape

Last night was pretty weird. I'm minding my business reading my book (Best of Friends, an Irish novel, quite good) at two a.m. when Erin comes into my room all drunk style and was like HANNAH. WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO MY DOG?!
Which I definitely wasn't, since I hadn't left my room. But oh well. She then proceeds to be like "You can't keep your bunny in that little cage!" and brings me a huge cardboard box.
Keep in mind that I've had Aibell in this fish tank for two days and she's been doing just fine, since she's only in there when I'm not in the room. Otherwise I let her hop around on the floor on a sheet. She poops alot. Anyhow...
I put all of Aibell's stuff in this box which is pretty huge, and Erin leaves and I'm laying on my bed when i hear little bunny feet scraping the side of the box and then... BOOM! She escaped. I was like oh gat damn. So, Drunkie's box idea failed. I went to tell her this, and she's standing by her door being like "OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD" and then pulls me into her room where there is a slug. And I'm not talking about a little like, whatever slug. Ohh no. This thing was about seven inches long and an inch thick. SO NAST. And of course her stupid dog is trying to eat it, because that's what Ali does. Eat everything. We got it outside after a few minutes of observing the janksiness, and I went back to bed. Then this morning, I wake up to Aibell eating the newspaper that was lining her tank. Yeah, straight up ignoring the bunny food, vegetables, and treat thing I put in there for her, and eating the damn NEWSPAPER. So it's like seven a.m. and I had to get up and change her bedding and then go back to sleep. Ugh. And may I mention the newspaper gave her f*cking bunny diarrhea? So when I woke up for reals I brushed my teeth and took her out back to clean out the tank. She's all hopping around when Maggie comes outside, and Ali escaped with her. Now, does this sound good to you? Little nine week old bunny in an enclosed space with a fully grown idiot pitbull. Ali decides to chase Aibell, and me and Maggie are freaking out and chasing them. I'm sure we looked hilarious. I finally caught Ali and Maggie caught Bunny, and yeah I punched Ali once but he was trying to eat my rabbit, so oh well. And along the way, haha, Maggie stepped in a nice big pile of dog poop. Which was hilarious, because it was all between her toes. Hahahaha. So after all the madness that occured int he last twelve hours, Aibell and I are now enjoying lunch as I write this blog. I'm gonna go watch some House, peaceeee.

You're Gonna Love This

Your Life in Songs

Birth: Mama Who Bore Me, Spring Awakening
Birthdays: Only Ashes, Something Corporate
First Kiss: It's Not A Fashion Statement, My Chemical Romance
Favorite Movie: Hey Mama, Black Eyed Peas
Favorite Band: A Favor House Atlantic, Coheed and Cambria
Best Friend: The Hound of Blood and Rank, Coheed and Cambria
First Love: Can You Feel the Love Tonight, Elton John
Your Vice: The Reason, Hoobastank
Your School: In The End, Linkin Park
Your Grades: Love Me or Hate Me, Lady Sovereign
First Hangover: The End Complete, Coheed and Cambria
Traveling: Time to Pretend, MGMT
Breaking Up: I Want To Save You, Something Corporate
Happiness: Feel Like Rain, Motion City Soundtrack
Sadness: She Paints Me Blue
Anger: Lonely Girl, Pink
Stupidity: Make Out Kids, Motion City Soundtrack
Best Christmas: Me and the Moon, Something Corporate
Graduation: Just Like a Pill, Pink
Moving Out: We Make the Road By Walking, The Juliana Theory
First Pet: Love Me for Me, Ashlee Simpson
Engagement: Born for This, Paramore
Wedding: Time to Dance, Panic! at the Disco
First Kid: Because I Got High, Afroman
Guilty Pleasure: Everything is Alright, Motion City Soundtrack
Religion: Hips Don't Lie, Shakira
First Car: Respect, Aretha Franklin
Affair: The Dead Girl Epilogue Part One, I Am Ghost
Craziest Night: The Sharpest Lives, My Chemical Romance
Child's Wedding: The Moment, Trans-Siberian Orchestra
Grandkids: I Never Told You What I Do for a Living, My Chemical Romance
Retirement: The Campfire Song Song, Spongebob Squarepants
Death: Mein Hertz Brennt

Speeding Into The Horizon

More from my random day.
I watched House for a while, I love that show. It's my new favorite. I had to go to therapy, and I got to drive! I get my license on September first. My mom is the worst backseat driver ever.
This blog sucks, i need to do more interesting things.

Let Your Rabbit Go Run

Ah, first blog post.
Hi everyone (:
Today has been soooo boring. I woke up to my mom calling my phone which was right next to my head. I think I'm deaf now. I should really probably wake up earlier but, oh well. Me and Maggie played with Aibell (the bunny) for a while before i told her (Maggie) that she smelled bad and made her get a shower. Apparently, she doesn't know what "hygiene" is, which is gross. I've pretty much just lazed around, I cleaned up my room a little and changed Aibell's bedding. I made a to-do list as well.
-clean my room
-fill in the holes in my wall
-paint my room
-finish my summer assignments
-find a new home for Aibell
Casie left for Washington this morning, so my week is going to be f*cking boring.
I'll put something better up tomorrow, I'm gonna go and take a nap.